it's funny, I don't really know what to write here. I'm pretty hesitant about the kinds of posts I make and the things I talk about. kind of ridiculous, really. who's gonna see this? who's gonna read through this and think, "what a fucking idiot?"
me, probably, in a year.
for now, this is a place for me to let loose some ideas. I need to get inspired. I have too much time. it's always either too much or too little.
my greatest fear is accomplishing nothing, I think. in this short life, I want to do something. I want to change the world. I want to make an impact on people's lives. I don't really know how I'll do it, but I hope one day I do. they say practice makes perfect, so here I am. today is december 26th, a tuesday, and I am trying to hone my skills. I am dedicating my time to writing, playing the piano, reflecting on myself, and using my time wisely, instead of looking at memes all day. in the past few days, I have worked on a lot of different skills I want to improve on to help me become a better, more wholesome person, in order to accomplish something, one day.
boredom is killer. I want to socialize as much as I want to be alone, as well. I guess I just need to be well-rounded and practice everything a little bit at a time: cooking, music, writing, reading, exercising, meditating, all of it. don't get bored. find some time to do something.